What could be the summation of a time,

That over this year has changed,

So very much, this life of mine

For good?

 

How to condense so vast and erratic a learning,

Cut questions face doubt and issues

More than unanswered but yearning

For more, a desire yet unfilled

 

And how to do even the slightest justice to the one

Who far before this year began had already

In my heart decided to make a change

And my soul he divided,

In two parts he made, space for an whole

And changed that which lacked

The light of a soul,

One greater and brighter than that heart divided

 

How could I measure that brilliance?

That terrible fire applied which hence

Changed the divided heart

But burning yet warm,

Eradicating the twist which in me resided

But yet clings to my walls

 

You see, unto me Christ has been imparted

But this long before my effort had started

He knew my soul well as in his hand

He had formed its shape, its time, its movement

And knew of its turning away from improvement

And desire to implode in its blindness for self

Denying it knows the incredible wealth

That was given to it and by which it was conceived

The one above all, the one that breathed

Life unto that heart

 

So now that which was twisted is being remade, mended

And by grace’s soft sound my flesh is now tended

Having the gift not gained but imparted,

So I shall always say, my soul had no part, it

Merely responded, to that soft call

To know one’s self, through the maker of all

 

So to Christ is all glory and power divine,

My joy is to say, not our will, but thine

For whilst our bent, broken darkness in ourselves abounded

Your grace has arrived, purified and founded

A temple within us, now your holy place

Where before only thorns, pride, and evil had space

 

I may never understand the work of my maker,

But all this to say, I will thank him, regardless

Praise his name, praise my lord

Oh my soul